NOUWEN BLOG SERIES TO START THIS WED. - JULY 1ST

It's official! The rerun of the blog series on Nouwen will begin this coming Wednesday (July 1st) with an Introduction to the series. The schedule will be as follows:

July 1 - Introduction
July 8 - On Spiritual Friendship
July 15 - On Spiritual Guidance
July 22 - On Spiritual Mentoring
July 29 - On Spiritual Direction
August 5 - Conclusion

I invite you to join in on the conversation and feel free to pass the word around with your friends who are familiar with the works of Henri Nouwen. I look forward to interacting with many of you!

Henri Nouwen and His Ministry of Companioning Blog Series

Since it's launching last June 3 of my blog series (hosted by my friend JR Woodward), I've really enjoyed interacting with several readers (most of whom I don't even know personally) on the subject matter of spiritual accompaniment as modeled by Henri Nouwen himself. Because of the great responses I've received thus far, I'm seriously contemplating running the entire series again - although this time around I will host it myself on this blog site which I maintain. I just have to think through the whole timing thing when to do it again. But what a way to engage with the topic with fellow travelers in the journey!

Guest Blogging

A very good friend of mine requested me to guest blog on his site and I agreed. The series topic is on Henri Nouwen's Ministry of Companioning which is excerpted from my second book Henri Nouwen and Soul Care: A Ministry of Integration. I hope that some of you will get the chance to visit the blog site and join in on the conversation. Feel free to post your comments and feedback. I would love to hear from you. The site is:
www.jrwoodward.net

Home Alone in Menlo Park

It's been a long while since I last blogged. Needless to say I've been busy, all over the place. This time around, I find myself alone with nothing much to do inside my room here at St. Patrick's Seminary where I just finished teaching a class. This is such a beautiful seminary! I love being here. I must confess, I fantasize sometimes about the idea of having an office here where I can do research and writing. The first room I stayed in had this huge library and study room, my ideal room I should say! Too bad I ended up staying at another room up on the third floor this time. I actually unashamedly requested that the next time I come back this end of May, that I be assigned to my "ideal" room again.

It's kinda nice once in a while to be alone. I have the luxury of reflecting about numerous happenings in my life. Lately, I've been preoccupied in thinking about an office space where I can bring my books, files, and stuff and where I can do uninterrupted period of writing. I've seen and inspected tons of places for the past several months now. Nothing is falling into place and I'm getting a bit impatient. I'm itching to really settle down. I was almost close to signing various deals but still, something would prevent me from actually consummating the agreement. I'd like to believe that God is preparing his "perfect" place for me after having been frustrated many times over.

I saw this one house last week which looked to me like an office. Long story short, I had this interesting conversation with the manager of this "place". I tried convincing him to rent me a space after I saw how gorgeous it is. Now I can only pray that this time around it will prove to be a real open door. Why do I have this strange feeling that this might be THE PLACE I've been waiting to land in? Who knows? But God knows and I can only hope against hope that this might in fact be the end of my long search. Oh God, please ...

"Real Presence" One Day Retreat on Feb. 21

The Journey

I'm spending the week here at Pine Springs Ranch (a camp site in Hemet, CA) for The Journey retreat hosted by my organization, The Leadership Institute. Last Tuesday evening I opened the first session of the Generation 17 (our latest Gen) with a talk on "Spiritual Companioning on the Journey." The following morning I gave a devotional message on the Psalms. I felt good about the two talks but right after that I came under the weather and felt sick. I must have caught the "bug" from one of the Journey participants. Last night was specially miserable for me as I tried to no avail to sleep but with the constant coughing and runny nose, it became nearly impossible to have a restful night. This morning didn't prove to be any better but I headed out just the same with some friends to check out a nearby lake. After just about a 10-minute drive we arrived into this magnificent area with such breathtaking scenery. We all couldn't wait to get down and stroll around. I walked and walked until I landed on a high spot on top of some huge rocks. It's been a while since I walked around a lake and this one is exceptionally beautiful and serene. The quietness seemed deafening at first but I soaked it all in. What a rich time of solitude even though it was a relatively brief time all by myself surrounded by those big rocks. I really felt like God was right beside me in that entire moment of quiet - something that I've never felt and sensed in a long time. It was as if I was savoring every minute of just "hanging out" with God and I was filled with peace in my soul. There was hardly any doubt in my heart that God was there with me. I could literally sense his presence in that place of stillness! What a gift I received today. It seems inconsequential and no big deal at all but for me it was a huge experience and I can't even begin to describe it. Anyway, I still feel weak and a bit sick physically but I feel so rested in my soul. This serves to be one of the greatest highlights of my Journey experience! God is good and is very present indeed!

"The Spiritual Work of Gratitude"

To be grateful for the good things that happen in our lives is easy, but to be grateful for all of our lives-the good as well as the bad, the moments of joy as well as the moments of sorrow, the successes as well as the failures, the rewards as well as the rejections-that requires hard spiritual work. Still, we are only truly grateful people when we can say thank you to all that has brought us to the present moment. As long as we keep dividing our lives between events and people we would like to remember and those we would rather forget, we cannot claim the fullness of our beings as a gift of God to be grateful for.

Let's not be afraid to look at everything that has brought us to where we are now and trust that we will soon see in it the guiding hand of a loving God.

From the Daily Meditation by Henri Nouwen (Bread for the Journey)

"HOLY CONVERSATIONS"

What a way to clinch this year - a year-end retreat in Santa Barbara with my old and newfound friends! I must say that the whole time I was there, my feelings were fluctuating and seemed to be swinging back and forth - between joy and sadness. For the most part I was really overwhelmed with grateful rejoicing ... thankful to God for wonderful friends that my wife and I are privileged to have. As I looked around me during the retreat, I couldn't help but feel blessed by the presence of very supportive friends, true spiritual companions on the journey. Yet at the same time, I couldn't deny the tinge of sadness realizing that many of these friends would no longer be a regular part of our circle because we are leaving our church community very soon. I realize that they'll still be around and we'll still be around ourselves but things are definitely going to be different. I have to learn to live with that "difference." I savored every moment of our conversations together. They were so rich and rewarding. My heart was so warmed by their kind words of support and encouragement even as my wife and I embark on this new road ahead of us. Truly, our time consisted of "holy conversations" - the kind that could only happen when hearts willingly and openly "companion" each other in a sacred sort of way. I am a blessed person! I eagerly anticipate a more blessed new year with an even more expansive community that I believe God would open up for us! I just know!

One of those "nights" (or early mornings!)

Suddenly I woke up! After tossing back and forth for a while, I decided to get up. Looked at my watch and it's exactly 3 am! Oh no ... one of those 3 am wake-up calls? Must've been the prime rib steak I ate during our church Xmas party! But I know better than that. I went straight to my study room and briefly prayed. Now I'm blogging about my thoughts. It's slowly hitting me. After the farewell blessings at the church service yesterday and the staff Christmas party last night, I'm now becoming more conscious of the fact that I'm really leaving the church. I watched all the familiar faces last night and I know after Jan. 15, things are no longer going to be the same. I'm going to miss a lot of people, a lot of friends. Thank God for the gifts of friendship, for the gift of community! I am a grateful person indeed! Even as I acknowledged the wave of sadness I felt, I remember Henri Nouwen's insights about turning my loneliness into solitude. I also thought about his idea of moving from solitude to community. It dawned on me: God will soon usher me into a new community and there's reason to be expectant. I am starting to look back now (already) but I'm also beginning to look forward to something new and beautiful!

My New Companion Sequel

Whether functioning as a spiritual friend, guide, mentor, or director, Henri Nouwen engaged in the integrative work of soul care. His ministry of integration flowed from his, albeit "imperfect," spirituality. Henri Nouwen and Soul Care: A Ministry of Integration makes a fitting companion to my earlier work Henri Nouwen: A Spirituality of Imperfection.

A Cold and Quiet but Fruitful Day

It's almost four in the afternoon and my day here in Orange County is about to come to an end. I drove up here early this morning with Juliet who attends a monthly spiritual direction session hosted by the Center for Spiritual Development. To maximize the time, I set up a couple of appointments and brought stuff I can work on while here including my computer. One appointment fell through but as it turned out I had good lunch fellowship with some of the students undergoing the training at the Center. I spent much of the morning grading the final papers of my Fuller students and checking my Facebook once in a while. At 2 pm, I met up with a potential directee and it was a rich conversation. Looks like we're going to be journeying together starting the new year! At this moment while I'm writing my thoughts, I'm literally freezing (I feel like I'm a "frozen delight" in fact!). It's a quiet afternoon, perfect for a time of reflection. I've been thinking a lot about the future and the new opportunities right before me and I truly sense a different kind of excitement in the air. My work on Henri Nouwen is definitely paying off. I never thought I'd be so immersed into everything Nouwen but I'm loving it. To date, last I checked Facebook, there are over 65 avid Nouwen fans who have signed up to be a part of the Nouwen Legacy Associates (a web page I recently created to connect together folks who read Nouwen). I feel like my circle is ever-widening and that's so thrilling! My borders are getting enlarged as I embarked more and more in this work on Nouwen. I end this day with gratitude in my heart and deep assurance that I'm headed towards the right direction even though there are a lot of things yet unseen. I feel cold but my heart is anything but cold right now. God is warming up my heart as I brace myself for the future. If I may invoke the famous words of Julian of Norwich - "All is well,and all manner of things shall be well." And as the equally famous hymn goes... it is indeed "well with my soul."

LAX REDUX

Yes, I'm back at LAX! This time I'm waiting to board my flight to Dallas, TX. I'm attending an old friend's memorial service. I feel so tired physically. I just finished an 8-hour retreat yesterday at Malibu. It was so rewarding an experience but I can feel the exhaustion because I'm sleep deprived. Today was another early wake-up time for me as I had to go to Loyola to teach a one-day class on Nouwen. Again, the whole thing turned out to be a super blessed time but I get this feeling that I'm almost about to fold up. Makes me seriously wonder whether I can hack another day without adequate sleep. But I needed to make this trip. My friend who died suddenly was someone I shared Christ with and mentored some 30 years ago. I felt real bad that I did not even get the chance to speak to him before he went into coma. Willy (yes, my namesake!) died peacefully last Wednesday. I wished I could've visited him before he passed away. I learned about his death just as I landed at LAX from my recent trip to Orlando. I barely have gotten over my jetlag and here am I making another trip again---and right after two consecutive Nouwen events. I'm grateful that God carried me through both events despite my weariness. Hopefully, I can recover from this seemingly crazy schedule next week. God's grace is sufficient and I'm claiming that. The joy of the Lord is my strength! Oh how I need to experience that at this very moment. I know I will!

Random Thots

I'm here at LAX and it's about 9pm, an hour before I board my flight to Orlando. A month and a half from now, my life is about to take a different turn. Effective Jan. 15, I'm resigned from my position as Director of Community Formation at Evergreen Baptist Church, our home church for the past five years. It's a mixture of sadness and anticipation - that's how I've been feeling lately when I think about saying goodbye to the church, and most especially to our close friends. I made this hardnosed decision convinced that God is indeed redirecting me in terms of ministry focus. I'm leaving a job that has provided me with some steady income for a new direction that still has a lot of unknowns surrounding it. But I can see a foretaste of what is to come gauging from the many open doors I am slowly witnessing. I have this deepening conviction that God has called me to really invest much of my time and energy promoting the spiritual legacy of Henri Nouwen through continued writing, conducting classes, spiritual direction,retreats,workshops, seminars, etc. There's this indescribable feeling of fulfillment each time I find myself doing this kind of work; it's as though I'm called to do just that! For the most part I do experience peace of mind and heart that I'm treading the right path but I'd lie if I didn't admit that I had my moments of doubts too, especially where the issue of stability, financial stability crops up. But, I'm already burning my bridges, so to speak, and there's really no turning back anymore. God's not brought me this far to let me down. I'm making the choice to trust God all the way!

Orlando Trip

I fly to Orlando tomorrow night and stay there for a few days. I'm gonna be working with Joel Dasalla, my friend in Orlando, who was responsible for designing the beautiful covers for my two books. We will be designing some promo ads for my latest book Henri Nouwen and Soul Care: A Ministry of Integration.

Nouwen Retreat at Malibu

I'm looking forward to next Friday as some 20 of us gather at Serra Retreat Center in Malibu for a day retreat.

QUOTE FOR THE WEEK
"The deep truth is that our human suffering need not be an obstacle to the joy and peace we so desire, but can become, instead, the means to it"

(Life of the Beloved)

Wil Hernandez, Ph.D., works for The Leadership Institute in partnership with The Spiritual Formation Alliance. He also serves as the Director of Community Formation at Evergreen Baptist Church of L.A. In addition, Wil teaches a course on the spirituality of Henri Nouwen at Fuller Theological Seminary and at the Center for Religion and Spirituality at Loyola Marymount University.

JUST RECENTLY RELEASED!

Look for this new book by Dr. Wil Hernandez focusing on Henri Nouwen's counterintuitive brand of spirituality!
Published by PAULIST PRESS
ISBN:0-8091-4434-4
"Wil Hernandez not only thoughtfully captures the essence of Henri Nouwen's 'way' as professor, pastor, and minister, but also introduces us to Henri's personal, spiritual journey." --- Sue Mosteller, CSJ, executrix of The Nouwen Legacy